Plane…..
You remind me about that January meet, about that little wonderful moment

Plane…..
Four times of Spring, Summer, Autumn, and Winter I’ve been wait. Wait for fulfilled by dream, wait for what I though come true

Plane…..
Even though being in love such a painful way, you’ve changed four years of painful in a moment
One precious hour moment seems to be enough to erase years for wait

Plane…..
Even happiness just like a blink eyes
But you’ve made that small happiness meet and connect

Plane…..
Diffusing happiness add more pain in the other side of me
Murmuring to myself to make me realize that a moment just a moment and will be disappear like a dust

Plane….
Now you took her away from me and
I want you to know that I’m so obsessed with her, and I let you know for the grief and despair because of loving someone who I can’t be with
Is my great pleasure.

Last moment was so meaningful, and what is this..? Tharraaaa the moment is another reunion party with old friends from high school in a day before Iedul Fitri. What a sudden. Because Last year BUBER with high school friends was so successful even, inviting orphan kids from ours neighbor’s orphanage is a new innovation from us and what we have planned this year is we want to repeat that moment as well as before. Okay I’ll jump to week before. A week before Rere who is friend of mine wrote a new note which is its contents inviting all of members to attend an event, I thought at first it’s really impossible for us to held such an event, because we haven’t fix place for event, we haven’t donate our fund, and everything is pretty sudden and unorganized. But thankfully for all, finally this event can be enforceable. With all of sudden effort, we took BUBER in ‘DAPUR KOTA” (Kitchen town) at Soekarno Hatta ex. Diva café.

And here we are, enjoy some pictures here:

The Whole Families

Meta, Verlandy, Yudi, Tita, and Aji

Me With Friends

Hmmm, Yummy XD

Met a lot friend melt my heart, laughing, joking, and sharing a new experience that we’ve got is pretty fun, many friends of mine who worked at distance force to attend this event even though I know that they just got home and really exhausted. Minna san Ganbare yoo!!! XD. We are trying keep in touch by using sociable sites like facebook, friendster, twitter or yahoo messenger but meet with friends or people in real truly different. We are truly laughing and joking in massive amount Awesome.

I has heavy meals, one plate full of rice and Ayam Penyet or in English order bit looks like crashes chicken with hot spicy added with fresh vegetables like cucumber, bean, and cress as a refresher it cost is about $1 or 10.000 rupiah for those, I also order blueberry shaken with vanilla milk or more famous called blueberry milk shake too for beverage and it cost $1.2 or 12.000 rupiah. I think that was a wrong choice for empty stomach, so I’ve order hot tea first to break fasting. Indonesian peoples likes spicy food to eat and we usually add more and lot of chilies in it, in our culture we don’t do like peoples in other countries do when we eat. We don’t know what they called appetizer, main course, or desert, in here every single meals is a main course. But it doesn’t mean that we eat all of them in same time. And the pictures are pretty much like this XD

Fried Rice (Hana and Rezky)

What we did end at 8:00 pm, most of our friends is so tired and decide to go home, but some of our friends me included go to MATOS to spend whole night hang out there, which is pretty much like these :

Meta and Me

Trying do a magic things..? Spontaneous act XD (Me, Letda Andy Yusuf, Tita, Aji, Wika, And Yudi)

Will this things happen again in next time..? I hope

A Rabbit

The Band

Aji with his straw

Me in The middle with them

Another craziest part continuing

There’s nothing special to tell just laughing, laughing and thrown a useless joke. But somehow inside my mind I truly adore peoples who still working in that night, even though that day is one before Iedul Fitri so I guess that they were pretty tired, sick of their work, want to go home and spend the holy night with their families, but cannot fight. Okay, let’s forget about misery, I’ve order my special beverage “Cappucino”. I wonder a Cappucino that I had drank made by a machine or even has own Barista because it’s very tasteful, soft, smooth, and the granule taste is really different than regular Cappuchino in sachet and bit same like Starbucks Cappucino taste, and the price was only $1 plus tax 0.5%. You should try it at BAli Cafe in MATOS Malang. Actually I want to tell much, but I just experiencing a headache and pretty unwell so I’ll end this post. See U in next entry. Pai2x

Haiiii guys…!!! I’m sorry for being so late to update my blog I don’t write anymore since my last update, I had a final task to be done, and right now I miss to blogging and at the same time I miss L’arc~En~Ciel too T_T. Since my graduation recently I’ve nothing to do unless trying to find more suitable job. I hope it will guide me to nice place for work which equipped with limitless internet connection ^^. But in my spare time I’m trying to learn something that might be useful in future and try to seek another business opportunity which is suitable with my capitals. I still don’t know what it is, but if all you read this, I hope you can enlarge my mind through your opinions.

By the way, I just got jacko’s (read : Michael Jackson) autobiography last three days and I got it from my friend who sold it to me. Yeah XD…!!! Previously I also got David Beckham’s autobiography too and think to collect more autobiography in the future. Despite I got both of them, I just lost my Encarta 2007 software and couple important cds, in my grandma house last week. T_T Okay what next..!!?! Sincerely I’ve made plan for this whole month, thus wouldn’t bother next schedule if I fulfill it. These are (7 highest priorities) :

1. Paint my new room with color that I’ve chosen

2. Reorganize all stuff like books and cds

3. Buy shelf for those

4. Preparing my self for an interviews

5. Go to Surabaya more often to fathom any kind of jobs

6. Stick saving money to buy L’arc concerts especially Theatre of Kiss and L’7 trans Asia via Paris original copy

7. Fully understand to kill a mocking bird movies and an inconvenient truth by al gore without subtitle

I think is enough for this time, I also want to say my dearest thanks to mom Mia and mom Madzi, for their patience during tuition program for final tasks and I’ve done it successfully under their guidance ^^; Thanks a lot. Ended by listening you are not alone by MJ ==> I’m here with you though you far away, I’m here to stay

See you in next updates.

First of all, I’d like to say sorry for some friends of mine who requested to me to entry my new post. If you read this, all of you must be knew that the past few weeks was our busy day on campus. So I didn’t have much time to write. Now I’ve finished it all, so enjoy my newest entry.

It was 2^nd august 2008, and I had free time for me until Cucuk came to my house, his CPU was in trouble so he needed to borrow my windows CDs to reinstall his CPU. He said that in mount Banyak, was held the international paralayang festival. So I asked him how if we watch it, and he agreed. He said that he planned to watch it a week before. So I decided to watch it too. Beside that, it was a last day for the festival, and I won’t miss the closing ceremony.

A week before (before 2^nd august) I have a trip Batu – Malang more often because my friends from Makassar visited me, and he need my help to pick up his military members to bring to Makassar. So, me being little lazt about going there (Mount banyak located in Pujon near from Batu), but hey this is an international festival.These some pictures of Me

beautiful isn’t…?

Pose With Local Praglider

The place split in to two areas, one area only for paragliders (I don’t know to call paralayang pilots, so I called it a paraglider), and one area is for visitors. They wrote the areas like this “Selain peserta lomba dilarang masuk”, and “Khusus Peserta”. Even we knew that was sterile area for the visitors, but we could still get in. I saw a lot of para gliders from other countries like India, Singapore, Malaysia and Australia. Surprisingly, many of them are women. I can’t imagine how strong they are, to lift a heavy paracute on their back. This is one of women paraglider, she is from Malaysia

Paragliders also rent their paracute for tandem flight, It costs IDR 350.000, ($35) – for one flight for a 30 minutes. So, if all of you interested just came to Mount Banyak to try a beautiful experience in the sky. When saw it first, my foot was sweating (high phobia T_T).

They ran from the edge of this mount, and jump at final edge. If until final at edge their paracute didn’t inflate, they can fall from hills.

I saw 4 until 5 jurys. Two jurys hold a small board, it has some papers to mark, three others is to help paragliders preparing the paracute. If the paragliders, fall before jump and fly, they got bad mark. I sneak it from the jurys papers.

The Participants

The Jurys

We’ve been there for 4 – 5 hours, until sunset like this

The Sunset

Me and The Gang (Sing Penting Guyub)

Enjoyed the moment until the end of festival (played over and over White feathers song from L’arc en Ciel) . But until the end of the festival there is no closing ceremony and I didn’t see a podium for the winners, I wonder the aim for this festival is to socialized this sport to the public and how far publics antusiasm with this sport. End

Saat itu pas hari Rabu, mungkin sekitar tanggal 3 atau 5 bulan Mei tidak ingat pastinya, setelah selesai bimbingan kuliah sekitar jam 12 siang saya ingin berkunjung ke kos salah satu teman saya. Disamping sudah lama tidak bertemu dengan teman yang satu ini, saya ingin sejenak merebahkan diri di sana. Namun dalam perjalanan menuju ke tempat kos itu, di persimpangan jalan secara tidak sengaja saya bertemu teman-teman segeng satu fakultas, nah dari situ mereka mengajak saya untuk bermain futsal yang jaraknya memang tidak jauh dari kampus.

Karena merasa cukup lelah dan tidak punya tenaga untuk bermain, saya tolak keinginan mereka. Tetapi ternyata karena teman yang ingin saya kunjungi ini ikut-ikutan main futsal terpaksa saya kehilangan tempat untuk merebahkan diri, walaupun dia sudah menyerahkan kunci kamar kosnya dan memaksa saya untuk tidur di tempatnya saya tetap menolaknya. Daerah kosan adalah daerah yang rawan pencurian, saya tidak mau jadi kambing hitam nanti kalau-kalau ada yang hilang di sana. Akhirnya dengan tubuh hancur lebur gak karuan, saya putuskan untuk ikut mereka. 10 menit, ah tidak tepatnya 15 menit mungkin saya sampai di tempat tujuan.

Puncak Tidar namanya, salah satu kawasan perumahan mewah diantara banyak perumahan mewah di kota Malang, karena namanya puncak tentu saja kawasan ini lebih tinggi dari daerah sekitar. Tempat ini sebenarnya cukup menyenangkan, hawanya yang sejuk sekaligus pemandangan indah kota Malang membuat saya rileks, dan sedikit bisa membuat lupa kalau sebenarnya saya ini sedang lelah.

Sementara teman-teman lain bermain futsal saya hanya berdiam diri duduk-duduk memandangi mereka, setelah cukup bosan dan perut terasa lapar, akhirnya saya putuskan untuk makan di cafee yang ada disitu. Makan apa dan minum apa pada waktu itu saya juga lupa, yang jelas harganya cukup murah untuk ukuran tempat seperti ini. Setiap selesai makan penyakit saya selalu kambuh, perut saya terasa penuh dan mata pun mulai mengantuk. Karena semalam harus lembur revisi skripsi dan hanya tidur beberapa jam, ingin rasanya badan ini, tubuh ini berada di tempat semestinya, di pulau kapuk yang empuk. Secara tidak sadar, saya merabahkan diri di kursi tempat pemain, karena kursinya cukup panjang, saya bisa selonjoran. Eh tidak terasa saya mulai tertidur.

Di dalam tidur saya ini, saya mendapat mimpi yang cukup aneh. Di dalam mimpi itu, tiba-tiba saja saya naik pesawat dan tiba-tiba landing di sebuah tempat antah-berantah yang menurut saya cukup asing. Lalu tiba-tiba saya ada di jembatan yang sangat panjang, mungkin seperti golden gate bridge di San Fransisco. Banyak mobil berseliweran disana-sini, berlalu-lalang dari arah yang berlawanan. Sedangkan saya berada di pinggir jembatan sedang melihat indahnya laut. Lalu tiba-tiba ada seorang wanita menegur saya dengan sopan, dan saya pun menolehnya dengan seksama. Seperti terpental jauh, jembatan yang tadi penuh dengan mobil tiba-tiba saja menjadi sepi, sunyi dan hampa. Seperti tidak ada kehidupan. Yang ada hanya saya dan wanita itu, mungkin jarak di antara kami sekitar 20 meter, dan tiba-tiba kami berada di tengah jembatan. Wanita itu diam dan memandangi saya dengan tersenyum, lalu tiba-tiba merengut dan tertawa. Karena merasa aneh, saya hanya bisa diam terpaku di sana. Lalu dia menghampiri saya pelan-pelan, berjalan dengan sangat pelan. Tiba-tiba sekitar sepuluh meter dari tempat saya berdiri dia membawa pedang yang panjang, yang entah datangnya dari mana. Dengan mata pedang yang menyentuh aspal, diseretnya perlahan-lahan menghampiri saya. karena merasa ketakutan saya putuskan berlari sekencang mungkin, tetapi anehnya setiap langkah yang saya ayun saya merasa wanita itu tetap berada pada jarak yang sama dengan saya sebeleum saya berlari, sekitar sepuluh meter tidak menjauh dan tidak pula mendekat. Saya sadar kalau saya sedang tertidur, saya mencoba berontak untuk bangun, mencoba berkali-kali tetap gagal. Akhirnya tepat pada satu titik saya bisa bangun.

Bangun dengan nafas tersengal, disertai keringat dingin, saya mencoba sekuat tenaga meraih tas, lalu mencari kertas dan bolpoin untuk menulis mimpi yang baru saja saya alami. Setelah berhasil menulis apa yang saya alami, saya berusaha meraih sebotol air putih dan minum dengan tenang. Beberapa teguk rasanya cukup menenangkan. Setelah itu saya mencoba untuk tidak tidur lagi dan berusaha menahan kantuk dengan sebatang rokok, dan menghisapnya dengan nikmat.

Nah awal mula sekali, saya bingung untuk menentukan nama bagi blog ini. Berbekal pengalaman dari mimpi itu awalnya ingin menamainya dengan nama blessing demon, setelah dipikir-pikir nama yang cukup menyeramkan, dan menyebalkan menurut saya, saya menggantinya dengan nama blessingangel.End

Intinya adalah konsep mengenai eksistensi perasaan dan bagaimana dampaknya terhadap pemikiran (wuih seperti judul tesis aja). Belakangan ini di dalam otak saya banyak sekali pikiran-pikiran seru berlarian di benak saya (Benak sama pikiran apa bedanya yah…?) Mulai hal yang super berat sampai hal-hal menggelikan seperti percintaan. Pikiran-pikiran ini menimbulkan semacam rasa yang aneh, absurd, dan banyak lagi rasa-rasa yang lain. Kembali kepada inti dari ini semua yaitu pikiran dan perasaan. pikiran dan perasaan selalu menjadi sesuatu yang unik. Kalau dibayangkan mereka layaknya hubungan antara manusia dengan manusia lainnya. Kadang mereka bisa berkonflik, berkompromi, berkolaborasi, sekaligus berkonspirasi. Mereka juga tidak bisa dipisahkan keberadaannya, seperti kebaikan dan kejahatan, baik dan buruk, malaikat dan iblis, surga dan neraka.

Hmmm, sepertinya enakan berbicara mengenai perasaan dulu deh, karena blog ini saya ketik karena keingintahuan saya mengenai perasaan, dan diketik dengan perasaan yang menggebu-gebu. Kalau menurut pendapat saya, perasaan itu eksis karena adanya stimulus berupa sebuah peristiwa yang diterima melalui otak yang kemudian oleh otak ditransformasikan lagi menjadi sebuah informasi sehingga menciptakan suatu sensasi. Itu kalau menurut analisis saya lho. (Betul tidaknya analisis saya, semoga pembaca yang budiman dan budigirl bisa membantu saya mendapatkan informasi yang jelas). Tapi apakah mungkin perasaan itu juga bisa menerima sinyal terlebih dulu daripada otak..? Lalu sebenarnya perasaan itu muncul di bagian tubuh sebelah mana sih..? Dan seperti apa sih bentuk “organ” yang bernama perasaan itu? Apakah lonjong, polka dot, kotak, bulat telur, prisma atau apa? Apakah rasa atau perasaan itu sebuah benda gaib yang tiba-tiba membentuk organ tersendiri? Apakah oleh Sang Maha Pencipta perasaan itu diciptakan memang sengaja sangat tersembunyi atau sangat samar sehingga dokter bedah manapun sulit kalau ingin mencarinya?

Mungkin yang ada perasaan Cuma bisa digambarkan melalui ungkapan bukan..? Dan letak perasaan itu kalau menurut saya berada dan berakumulasi atau lebih tepatnya berkecamuk di dalam rongga dada. (Apakah pembaca yang budiman dan budigirl merasakan perasaan di bagian tubuh lain..?) Kalau dipikir-pikir padahal yang ada di dalam rongga dada itu hanya ada sebuah jantung dan sepasang paru-paru bukan. Lalu kenapa letak perasaan itu bisa muncul di dalam rongga dada dan tidak di dalam rongga perut, atau bagian lain yang ada dalam tubuh kita…? Pasti ada alasan logis kenapa semua ini terjadi bukan? Apakah perasaan di tempatkan dan diciptakan di dada karena dekat dengan otak? Sehingga memudahkan komunikasi dengan otak? Atau perasaan diciptakan di dada karena di dalam rongga perut penuh dengan kotoran…? Atau Sang Maha Pencipta memang tidak ingin menciptakan sebuah perasaan menjadi sebuah organ dengan bentuk tertentu seperti spare part yang bisa diutak-atik dan diubah-ubah isinya oleh montir yang bernama dokter bedah..? Atau…atau…atau….?

Kata orang, malu bertanya sesat di jalan, banyak Tanya berarti bego. Bukankah menjadi bego karena keingintahuan yang mendalam adalah yang terbaik, daripada merasa pintar lalu menuju ke arah kesombongan..? menurut Anda siapa atau profesi apa yang paling banyak menggunakan perasaan? Apakah musikus…? Seniman…? Dokter barangkali…? Pengacara…? Atau yang lain…? Hmmm musikus kali yah…? Kalau menurut saya hampir semua musikus di dunia ini karyanyanya berbicara mengenai cinta, bukankah cinta berasal dari perasaan…? Dengan menggunakan segala daya ciptanya baik itu perasaan atau pikiran para musikus berhasil menciptakan sebuah karya fenomenal yang bisa dinikmati semua umat manusia di bumi ini. Hmmm, pikiran dan perasaan mana yah yang harus di dahulukan…? perasaan, pikiran…… pikiran, perasaan…..perasaan, pikiran….? Kalau Anda….?

(Ditutup oleh lagu Sunadokei by L’arc En Ciel dengan lyric Taisetsu na hito wo mamoru tame ni)

Gambatte…!!!! It’s my first time to write (actually not ^_^ v) the blog to publish. I’m not good in English in active, but passively I’m good (enough), so if you read this and find a lot of mistake, please try to help me better and better. Okay… Thursday 20 may 2008 was heaven day for me. At first my schedule is futsal (Indoor soccer) with my team mate. I’m not interested play in this match, my knee is injured after last match (actually lately spinning in my head, about Eduardo’s disaster /Eduardo da Silva is knowing as Arsenal player) his ankle broke severely, Martin Taylor as Birmingham player did a slide-tackle on him (cruel…cruel…cruel) these couple of eduardo’s pictures

I’m Sorry if those picture beeing so violent. I hope he get well soon. Even know Arsenal is enemy number one for Manchester United. But I push to play. In that match, I talk to myself I’ve to score (to prove my integrity as good striker..!! Hahaha). Heavenly I’ve scored exactly is two goals. Happy…Happy…!!! (remembering my injury) now I can prove to my team mate that I’m a good striker. After played a really good match (We won 19 – 9) hardly. I took a bath Which is provided by the soccer ground (the bathroom is awesome it had a lot of bath, which can spray hot water and cold) of course i prefer the hot one. My friend told me that hot water is great pain killer, hmmm is so comfort little bit can reduce my pain. After that we try to karaoke in the upstairs (also provided by the owner freely) they try couple dangdut song’s to sing (ohhh hell T_T). I don’t want talk to much about this time (unfold tightly) it was embarrassing.

Near at 12.00 Am, my friend talk that how if we try go in Cangar (hot water area) which place in Batu (administrative city in Malang) more over, Batu located is more than 800 meters from sea plan, ohh hell, I thing that was horrible plan, even I’m didn’t know about that place and never being there, but I know that place is far away from we are stand now. No..No… I Said, that was bad idea, it will be rain, and the weather is cloudy, I said more. Finally after we meeting in board room ^_^v, the answer decision is, all the team mate should go there EVERYONE. 12.30 Am, we start at soccer ground, it took more 2 hours to CANGAR I think. While in the road I find magnificent scenery spinning all over. Ooowww awesome, now I can change my mind I think it is the beautiful experience, (I never had it before). Just like in INITIAL D movie, it had small asphalt road and spinning. I’m so frightening at was, they driven really like Takumi (Knowing as main actor in Initial D), drifting with good technique, if we are make any mistake, like slip in that road I can said Geemu ooba (Game Over) we can fall into deep

14.00 Am we’ve arrived to Cangar (more fast 30 minutes). That was nice site, surrounding by mount Penanggungan, Welirang and Arjuna (last name is the mount which used by famous bottling mineral water company to provide their main resource to make a mineral water, the company known as AQUA. I don’t know exactly from where Cangar took the resource from these mountain. Might it could at Welirang mount because the mountain is closer to the site. At first I thought just like this

Hot spring resort in Japan, but just like Indonesia all the good resort places didn’t maintenance properly. To entrance the site we just spend 2700 rupiah, is cheap. In there contain three pool, one pool is a warm water approximately 25 meter x 45 in square and it has more then 1,5 meter in deep. Used to swim. Two pools other is small pool, round pool, with small rock in the middle of pool, and contain by hot water. Approximate 25 C, in those pool, hot enough. The site covered by the fog, woooh its look like in Japanese scenery. Spend 3 hours in there, just very calm in my mind, so peaceful. Long time I didn’t feel like this. Very very peaceful. Your body very limp after move from there. Unfortunately I didn’t bring my camera, If they talk one day before, I can prepare everything. i feel so sory to myself. why..? I think I’m afraid that we can’t spend our free time in the future just like this anymore. We’ve graduated (Actually 6 person on it is graduated, another 2 person doesn’t graduate yet, include me… HAHAHA) I took another degree in my university. So it could be farewell party. SO guys Let’s pray hope in near can rejoin again